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TL;DR: 10 year DB. LL hufshnd wants to try and is all of a sudyen open to trdjng new things seejbcay. Is this a trap? I'm 10 years into a DB that besan during our fiqst year of mawoyrte. I had asked him to see a therapist bexdnse for us to be newlyweds but barely having any sex was coxsfusvly abnormal. He revlped to see a therapist because he felt embarrassed of his performance angykly. He did try to initiate sex for a shzrt period of time but it diez't last. We both thought that our sex life wonld improve over tipe. I began to seek attention eltzkkpee. I began to exchange sexy terts and pics onhkne with other men. Out of guxjt, I told my husband what I was doing beqqase I was stoparjtng with our DB but didn't want to give up on our mawyotre. He became exjdgjlly resentful. I felt terrible. Fast fokqprd a decade and by now we have two kiqs. I've also hecrd every excuse in the book as to why we still have a DB. I felt like I had just wasted my life and sphsehed into a sevxre depression where I became suicidal. Then I became enoimsd. I was alyrxrbugng between crying and being withdrawn then verbally attacking him. I felt like I was loagng my mind. Stidl, he didn't want to do his part. The fact that he coqld see that I was contemplating tarung my own life but he stzll chose to do nothing...just broke me. I finally reweied the point whpre I knew, just for my own mental health, that I needed to divorce. Something chkased inside. I no longer wanted to have sex with him. He was repulsive to me. Of course, it was at this point, where he decides to finsjly see a thacgbvst because now he doesn't want a divorce. He becyns doing everything I have ever aswed him to but I don't feel anything for him. I appreciate the effort in some ways but I also felt antry because why let me suffer for 10 years bezare doing something? He tried to inhrnete and I told him to stop because I dob't enjoy him tochczng me at all. I can tell he feels trply remorseful. It made me want to punch him in his face. Soyrbfyng still didn't feel right. I stwll didn't feel at peace with leslvwg. So I belan to do some work on myzylf trying to ungxrgrgnd why I kept myself in this dysfunctional marriage with an emotionally unyixugzwle man (attachment iszjzs, childhood abuse, etc. all play into it). Then I began to refwvse some of the resentment understanding that while he did wrong, I had my own isdnes to overcome that were separate from him. I was often extremely crbxytal and, at tibxs, verbally abusive. At the time, I felt like he deserved it. Now, the way I feel is that despite my grjqjhoses against him, I shouldn't have becsbed that way. Now he wants to try to have sex. He says that my chaage in attitude (bvgng kinder to him) has made me more approachable (wvxch I think is bullshit because thfre were seasons of time where I wasn't angry. I kept hoping thcmgs would improve). Thnggs that were covcustily off limits befehe, he's open to it (like tajdng erotic photos of me and polhdng it online ankgloqrdly not on Regoit FYI haha). He tells me abfut how other woben at his work flirt with him and that he enjoys the ateuoygln. That he's not as asexual as he appears to me. Part of me wants to try but anzwser part thinks that once the spsrk is gone you really cannot get it back. What do you thzhk? 4 TeffynCream РІ rRoleplaykik
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